Why did I start meditating? To answer this question, I will first talk a little bit about my background. I am extremely fortunate to have grown up with two supportive parents and a loving family. Not everyone has that type of living environment, so I can say I am very lucky to have been raised under those circumstances.
Ever since I was in elementary school, my future was laid out for me: study, do well in high school, go to a good college and get a degree in a discipline that makes a lot of money. My parents drilled it into my head ever since I was little. So, that’s exactly what happened—I graduated with honors in high school, got my degree after going to university and landed a job within months of walking the aisle in my cap and gown. Unfortunately, cohorts of my generation were unable to find a job in their field because of the recessive economy at the time. It sucked seeing close friends having to move halfway across the country just to be working in the career they spent four-plus years studying for.
My first “adult” job was thankfully close to home. My parents let me live with them, giving me the ability to throw my salary at my student debt, which was about $30,000. I saved most of my income (which was definitely not easy), and I was able to pay off my student loans within a few years.
A few years after graduating college, I was living a comfortable life; no student debt, good income, brand new car, just moved in with my girlfriend and life was good. However, something was missing and I wasn’t sure what it was. From the outside looking in, any sane person would have guessed that I was enjoying life—travelling, taking vacations, showing off on social media and eating at fancy restaurants. Right around this time my friends were slowly abandoning Facebook, while Instagram and Snapchat were becoming more popular among my peers.
Although life seemed good, I was stressing about things that I shouldn’t have been stressing about. I couldn’t resist thinking about all the things that could go wrong, and I couldn’t stop looking at other people either negatively or with pure jealousy. Over the years, I had morphed into a very pessimistic person on the inside while keeping my smile and friendliness on the outside to hide my true feelings. I am not really sure how that happened, but slowly and surely that’s the type of person I became.
Then, after reading about it on a reddit thread, I realized that meditation might help me. Other coincidental events pushed me into researching meditation a little bit more. Future blog posts will detail these coincidental events, because personally I feel they are amazing how it turned out, and I would like to document how my life could have been so different if these coincidences never came to fruition.
After doing more research and having moments of clarity, I took the dive and started meditating. It’s not easy; I have a lot of ups and downs. But hopefully in the end it will be worth it. I don’t have anything to lose—just how I choose to spend my time. But I was spending a lot of time stressing about things, so meditating couldn’t have been worse than that. Today, I am learning as I go, and I will do my best to continue to learn.
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