Meditation Journey: Revelation

This morning’s meditation session was intense. I have been meditating now for about a month. I got my routine down to 3-4 times a week, usually in the morning before work and on Saturdays when my fiancée is at her job. For every session before todays, my experience has always been different. Sometimes I get a lot out of it, and other times I feel like it’s a waste of my time.

This morning, however, was definitely mind opening.

I start off like I normally do, by focusing on my breathing and the darkness of my eyelids. My mind is blank. Whenever a thought comes to my head, I quickly dissipate it and continue to think of absolute nothingness. In the past, this method has brought me back 50-50 results. When it’s good, I feel like a million bucks the rest of the day. But other times, I feel I would have been better off just sleeping in.

On this sunny morning, I am focusing my mind and –something different happened. Thoughts were coming to my head, but not just random thoughts; they were introspective thoughts about myself. Thoughts about why I act the way I do; why I think the way I think, why I react in certain situations. At first, I tried to dispel the thoughts and continue to focus on my breathing. But instead, I absorbed the thoughts and let them pass through me. I accepted them and moved on.

I was seeing myself in a different light. I was giving myself a new explanation for how I have acted in the past. For example, in certain situations when I get irritated at my significant other, it isn’t her fault; but it is because of my own insecurities. This meditation session helped me see that, and so much more. I could see my own weaknesses and my own faults, whereas in the past, I would create excuses for myself and put the blame on others. I could see where I need to grow as a person and as a boyfriend.

It was an eye-opening experience. It didn’t last very long, somewhere between five and ten minutes. But it was perhaps one of the best meditation sessions I have partook in so far.

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38 thoughts on “Meditation Journey: Revelation”

  1. From my experience meditation isn’t just about focusing on breathing and emptying your mind. When thoughts come to mind you are supposed to acknowledge them and then let them pass. Those thoughts help us find our center, dissipate our worries and fears, as well as ponder on our goals. Thoughts coming and going is good. It resets your mind for the day and gives you time to ponder what the day has in store for you. It helps you realize what is important and what is not.

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  2. Are there any books that you’ve read on the subject that you would recommend. I am loving the meditation blogs on WordPress. It’s really hard for me to get to that nothingness place. It’s here and then 2 seconds later a thought emerges. I started reading a book called, “turning the mind into an ally.” I highly recommend it if you haven’t read it yet. Keep up the mindfulness!

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  3. For what it’s worth, I have realized that it’s all about being persistent and staying at it …. over time. You’ll have your up days and your down days but you still need to persevere and make a point of doing what you know makes a difference in your life. It’s amazing how different my life has been since having implement yoga into the daily schedule of things. It’s not always at the same time although I know I have to work on doing that.

    If it weren’t for my yoga time, I wouldn’t be able to continue to bowl like I have recently. It’s my first year back to bowling for over 20, maybe 30 years and it’s been tough because I can’t bowl in the same way that I did back then. And, if it weren’t for the yoga and the meditation before each occurrence, I’m sure I’d be in terrible pain and miserable. But I have found a solution to all that and it has been a godsend to me in this one situation alone, not to mention the mindset changes for the positive and good it’s done in my life. 🙂

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  4. I’ve been meditating daily for just over a week now and have worked up to doing sessions between 10 and 15 minutes. I’m finding the process interesting and its nice to read about someone else’s journey too.

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  5. Congrats on getting started with meditation! I look forward to following your journey. Remember, even when it’s hard or doesn’t feel like it’s “working,” it’s still meditation. It is what it is that day. 🙂 Thanks for sharing your story!

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  6. This sounds like a great session, indeed! I should really give it another try myself, but somehow I keep putting meditating off… 😦 Your story gave me renewed motivation, though! Keep at it!

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  7. Congratulations. It’s amazing the small moments that allow us to put our awareness to what we used to just take as “fact”. I, too, am on the new journey of meditation, and after the stillness, I notice things so clearly that it’s almost miraculous. Thanks so much for sharing an inspiring.

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  8. It is a good idea to do a meditation diary. I will also try to do one. I trained in sivananda yoga ans meditation.they recommend always a regular time of day.ideally sunrise and sunset.
    I find group meditation help prolong the session.

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  9. Lots of people way further along on their journey spend talk a lot about how our hopes and expectations of getting something out of meditation end up getting in the way of it. I am still wrapping my brain around this idea… I do know that when I have an experience I consider awesome/insightful/mystical/whatever, I usually struggle a bunch in the days after. Sometimes it is to the point that I wish I hadn’t hard the break through in the first place! I suspect there is something going on around the idea that I am busy trying to recreate the previous “success” rather than accepting the moment I am living in.

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    1. (Just realized how that read: I want to specify, that the lots of people are way further along their journey than me; I wouldn’t want to presume that is true of you)

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    2. You are right on point! That is exactly what happened in my case. After this revelation, my meditation journey did not progress as I had hoped. Actually, I am working on my next blog post which will detail that further. Thanks for reading and thanks for the comment!

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  10. Like AndiAshLaw said, it’s so nice to know others experiences on meditation.
    Although I couldn’t find it through typical way of meditation, but I have fortunately found my own way and whenever I need, I am able to get revelation or insight and sometimes get visions of true love or the universe…
    Thanks for sharing! Keep going on with meditation. It will keep giving you a marvelous!

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  11. It’s always nice and comforting to know others go through similar things. Meditation has truly transformed my negative thoughts and provided me with much insight, especially in the way you describe above. Stick with it because the revelations never stop and it’s a great way to stay in tune with yourself and life path. Thanks for sharing!

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  12. Thank you so much for sharing your experience!! I am looking forward to pairing back up with my daily yoga practice and meditation. I enjoyed reading this post. I’ll plan to check out your other posts as well. 🌼

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  13. You are right this was a breakthrough. Congratulations. Wednesday evening I ws in a satsang with a tulku teaching on meditation. He gave a lot of information on signs and pitfalls in the progress of meditation. At first every kind of thought comes but as you learn to release them things change. His English was not fluent, I will try to put it simply. The irrelevant thought sort of loose enegy and can’t intrude after practice and then you start getting thoughts you should examine. The trick is to do that without becoming attached. Good luck

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    1. Thank you for the comment. I have been interested in going to teachings on meditation but have not done any research on finding one near where I live. It sounds like it was very beneficial to you, so I may try to look for some around here.

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