Meditation Journey: I Hit a Roadblock to My Meditation Progress

Just as I was making significant progress in my meditation journey, I hit a roadblock. I was meditating consistently, getting good sessions in, seeing improvements in my life, and it all came crashing down.

Several months ago, my fiancée and I felt we needed a change of scenery. They were building a new apartment complex across town, and we decided to make the move. We had grown irritated at our current neighbors— we could smell them smoking (in a non-smoking apartment complex), they weren’t picking up after their dogs’ poop (sorry for the visual), and some were even parking in spots that weren’t assigned to them. It got to the point where we couldn’t just disregard it without feeling bothered. So we figured it was time for a change, and what better way than to move to a complex that’s brand new and full of updated amenities, with beautiful views as a bonus.

If you have ever moved before, then you know the drill. It can be stressful. There were so many things we had to do: hire movers, update our addresses, pack tons of boxes, then unpack tons of boxes, clean the old apartment, set up the utilities and a lot of other miscellaneous things. We didn’t really feel settled in until about two weeks after we had the initial move.

During that time, I didn’t get any meditation sessions in. I was so tired and stressed out, I couldn’t muster up the energy to sit and meditate. Whether it was the lack of meditating, or just the overall situation, but I was not in a good place.

Before all this hoopla, since I started meditating I noticed myself viewing life in a very different light. I was positive and upbeat. I was living life in the present moment. It was wonderful. But during those two weeks of the moving process and being meditation-less, my mind was regressing into a negative state. I was feeling down, tired and irritable. Work was smacking me in the head. When I looked at our never-ending to-do list, I felt extremely anxious. Maybe, just maybe, if I were able to meditate during that stressful time, I would have handled it all a bit better.

Either way, all the major moving stuff had been taken care of now. And I knew I had to get back into my meditating routine.

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49 thoughts on “Meditation Journey: I Hit a Roadblock to My Meditation Progress”

  1. We all,those on meditative path,have experienced this at one point of time or other ..However ,Meditation makes sure we are out of the mess at the earliest..being regular in even in tough times is the key ..I would like to add that though most of the people want to do Meditation but they don’t know how & from where to start.

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    1. Hi, thanks for the follow! I just read your post and wanted to reply with sometimes meditation helps us build up ’emotional stamina’ to handle frustrating things more gracefully. While we can’t avoid the negativity that often persists in life, we learn from this practice we can learn to let it be and pass by more gracefully. If anything, maybe that will open up a new perspective for you on your journey that although you might still experience discomfort from time to time, you aren’t necessarily lost from the practice. I find it comes in waves, we internally build ourselves high so as to give us the capabilities to deal with life’s difficulties with more strength and grace. I love that you’re writing about your journey and look forward to reading more!

      Best wishes.

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  2. I just moved last week, and can totally empathize with the all-encompassing stress associated with it! I think any spiritual practice comes with highs and lows and learning experiences. Thanks for sharing your roadblocks as well as your successes.

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  3. Read this book:

    Illusions, by Richard Bach

    Zen mind views the world as a flash of lightning, bubbles in a stream. All these things are fleeting: apartments, moving, meditation, utilities, dog poop, inconsiderate neighbors, new digs, wordly thoughts and needs.
    You are one with the cosmos, one day your mind will see this.
    Then you will be free.

    Seek peace,

    Paz

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    1. Hi Jodie. I forced myself to make time for meditation. I got up a little bit earlier than I used to, so I could meditate before work. Even though I was sleepy, I got myself up and did it. After the first few times, it became a normal routine for me and it wasn’t so difficult to get myself up. Also, I tried different techniques in meditating. For example, I tried the meditative walking technique. It’s hard to get back into it, but I know you can do it!

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  4. you’re doing OK (in my book). i moved 6 months ago and have totally lost my groove. i go through a week, 10 days of sitting regularly, and then (puff!) the habit disappears again. i know it will come back, because i want the feeling of groundedness again, it’s just still alluding me. Keep on keeping on, metta.

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  5. For some reason the link in my comment above went to a private website. If you are trying to find the meditation training aids on my blog they are at jparpaiamd.com. Sorry about not the mixup.

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  6. I enjoyed reading your accounts of your practice. As a meditation teacher I view meditation as similar to exercise. Just as different exercise techniques develop different physical abilities, different meditation techniques develop different mental abilities. We can then use these mental abilities to help us move toward various goals. Spiritual traditions emphasize that only spiritual goals will be truly fulfilling, however there is no reason not to start with more mundane goals, such as better sleep, lower stress, etc.

    I often find that when someone starts having difficulty maintaining a meditation practice, there is a mismatch between the benefits of techniques they are practicing and their current needs. The mismatch may arise from the techniques developing different mental abilities than those they need to train. Or the techniques may not be able to be applied to their current situation, say because the person does not have time for extended techniques and needs to use brief techniques.

    I noticed you are following my blog and I started following your’s as well. If you have any questions about the techniques that I post please ask them in the comments and I will do my best to reply in a useful manner :-).

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  7. Thank you for stopping by and following my blog. It is a blessing when a person realizes the beneficial effects of meditation have had on their well being. I am glad you noticed. I enjoy your writing style and will pop back to see you again. In love and light Cheryle

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  8. You have a similar story to my own.. except for the moving part. Last night was the first time in about two months I meditated in my meditation room. It was the first time in that two months I lit a candle, pulled out my yoga mat and pillow, listen to some chanting.. and then I had a bad nights sleep, lol.

    I have fallen out of focus before but it was only for a few weeks but now it’s been two months and it’s hard to get refocused. I have always been good at realizing I was being negative and refocusing but I guess since more time has passed, I will need to give myself more reminders of being positive.

    Good Luck! and Namaste! 🙂

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  9. You always have time to meditate, everything else is just excuases to deny yourself of love. My meditationmaster davidji, has this wonderful book “Secrets of Meditation” that will tell you that it only take 16 seconds. And I bet that in your life, you always got 16 seconds you can give to yourself. You just take a breath, count til 4, hold your breath til 4, breath out til 4, and hold your breath again til 4. You can always make it longer then 16 seconds, or count longer. The main lesson to calm your stressful mind, is 16 seconds.
    He will also tell you that you can not stop your thoughts, (I think he says we got 70000 – 80000 aday) you can just become friends with them, and with the world around you and then you will be meditation 24/7 🙂
    I love to read your journey and I wish you all the best ❤ and never stop, it will get better with practise, I promise.

    Namaste

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  10. I loved hearing your thoughts and experiences with meditation. One thing is certain……that quiet space patiently waits for us to find our way back no matter whether it has been 5 minutes or 5 years since our last visit. Thank you for sharing in my own journey of mindfulness, meditation and collaboration. 🙂

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  11. I have the same thing happening to me as well. I’ll have days/weeks where I am consistent and persistent. Then I’ll have some periods where I am not meditating and I feel I am falling back to reactivity and living in almost an autopilot zombie mode in my mind. It’s comforting to know others have the same issue as well.

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    1. All practice is in cycles, like the ocean tide. It takes awhile to realize that, but once you do you’ll give yourself a break, which allows you to absorb what you’ve learned so far. When you get into the next upward cycle you start at a higher point.

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  12. I’m having a similar experience except it’s not moving that’s keeping me from my practice, it’s being sick. I want so badly to get on my yoga mat, but I am just so exhausted and sick that I can’t. It leads to anxiety and guilt and I hate it 😦 I hope you can get back into your groove soon!

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    1. I am truly sorry that you aren’t well. Being sick may be a perfect opportunity to be quiet and away from the planet earth for a little while. Meditating teaches us how to let go. Being sick forces us to let go, to regroup to our spiritual side and to be quiet. I love my yoga practice. A year ago I did my first handstand. I was really excited. The very next day I came down with pneumonia – 2 months on my back and so wiped out that i couldn’t read, watch tv, talk on the phone. Nothing. So I decided to use this time as a vacation from earth and explore the quiet and allow myself to rest. According to my doctor the other option was death. You will heal, but only you determine how you will get to that tipping point of healing. My heart is with you.

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      1. If only we could remember this. The only other option is always death. Vacations from Earth are very worthwhile, and an important thing to practice. Every minute of every day is my meditation. Every movement is my yoga. Every beautiful moment in this beautiful cosmos is my zen.
        One day I will vacation from Earth, and simply not return.

        Seek peace,

        Paz

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  13. Well…I heard a Thich Nhat Hann interview. The interviewer asked Thich how long he practiced meditation each day. Thich said, “I’m always practicing. There isn’t a time when I’m not meditating.” So, there’s sitting meditation, standing, walking, moving to my new place meditation. Life becomes a meditation. Practice practice.

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  14. Thanks for following my blog. I return the compliment as I love the detailed and analytical way you look at what’s going on in your head! Great. I’m looking forward to hearing about your walking meditation experiences. I think you will be inundated with advice about meditation. Good luck 🙂 Why did you follow my blog by the way? I’m crazy!!

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