Growing up, I was a sports fanatic. I emphasize the word fanatic. As a life-long California Bay Area resident, I’ve always been a fan of the Golden State Warriors (yes, even before they won their NBA championship a couple years ago). I owned their merchandise and I would attend a few games each year. In fact, I was such a fan, that a few years ago, I even got the same exact tattoo as one of my favorite players. Yes, you heard that right. The same exact tattoo, in the same exact body part. Oh man, how I would slap myself if I could go back in time when that idea initially came into my head.
Nowadays, it doesn’t take much for me to sit and meditate. Once I decide I want to, I go and do it. It wasn’t always like that. When I first started meditating, it took a lot for me to decide on a time and actually follow through with it. Being able to sit for more than just a few minutes at a time was another problem I faced.
Today, for the first time, I meditated in the rain.
This is a continuation of Expectations Vs. Reality, Part 1.
I encourage you to read Part 1 before reading this entry. The second example I will write about in this Expectations Vs. Reality topic is concerning material things.
Sometimes our expectations don’t line up with reality. When that happens, we can be in for a rude awakening. Meditation and mindfulness has helped me curb that expectation to lessen the blow when reality doesn’t turn out the way I hoped.
To state it briefly, mindfulness is about being present. Being aware of what is happening and what you are feeling in the moment here and now. When you are taking a walk outside, what are you usually doing? Are you looking at the trees? Smelling the fresh air of flowers and grass? Or are you looking at your phone? Scrolling through facebook? Checking how many likes your latest instagram picture got? Browsing snapchat to see what everyone else is up to?
I actually started meditating in the middle of the year. So technically meditation wasn’t a New Year’s Resolution for me. Personally, I was never successful in completing my New Year’s Resolutions, so I don’t partake in them anymore. Instead, if I want to make a change in my life, I try to plan and act on it as soon as I can, which can be at any time of the year.
But once I did decide to start meditating consistently, here’s what worked for me:
I turn over and lay my head on the other side of the pillow. I open my eyes and check the digital clock laying on my nightstand. 3:02am. Those big red numbers are taunting me. Laughing at me. They’re asking me why am I still up and why am I struggling so much. I have to get up in 4 hours and I haven’t’ been able to fall asleep yet. Why can’t I just go to sleep?! Okay, I’m going to close my eyes and lay perfectly still. Then I should be able to fall sleep right away…