It has been nearly a year since I began this meditation journey. My life has definitely changed in the past year, some of it due to meditation, and in other ways in spite of it.
Nowadays, it doesn’t take much for me to sit and meditate. Once I decide I want to, I go and do it. It wasn’t always like that. When I first started meditating, it took a lot for me to decide on a time and actually follow through with it. Being able to sit for more than just a few minutes at a time was another problem I faced.
Today, for the first time, I meditated in the rain.
I actually started meditating in the middle of the year. So technically meditation wasn’t a New Year’s Resolution for me. Personally, I was never successful in completing my New Year’s Resolutions, so I don’t partake in them anymore. Instead, if I want to make a change in my life, I try to plan and act on it as soon as I can, which can be at any time of the year.
But once I did decide to start meditating consistently, here’s what worked for me:
I turn over and lay my head on the other side of the pillow. I open my eyes and check the digital clock laying on my nightstand. 3:02am. Those big red numbers are taunting me. Laughing at me. They’re asking me why am I still up and why am I struggling so much. I have to get up in 4 hours and I haven’t’ been able to fall asleep yet. Why can’t I just go to sleep?! Okay, I’m going to close my eyes and lay perfectly still. Then I should be able to fall sleep right away…
There’s a reason why I haven’t updated this blog in over a month.
If you’ve read the About Meditating Millennial section of this website, you would know that I am engaged to be married. After being together for almost five years, that is no longer the case. My ex-fiancée and I are no longer engaged to be married, and we are no longer together.
I have finally gotten past the tumultuous roadblock. I have been meditating almost daily, doing my best to be in a state of mindfulness. Thanks to some of the comments from my previous blog posts, I am getting helpful reminders and tips on how to improve my meditative life.
Lately, I have been trying to expand my meditative state of mind into my daily life.