I turn over and lay my head on the other side of the pillow. I open my eyes and check the digital clock laying on my nightstand. 3:02am. Those big red numbers are taunting me. Laughing at me. They’re asking me why am I still up and why am I struggling so much. I have to get up in 4 hours and I haven’t’ been able to fall asleep yet. Why can’t I just go to sleep?! Okay, I’m going to close my eyes and lay perfectly still. Then I should be able to fall sleep right away…
Zzz. Zzzz. Zzzz.
RING RING!! RING RING!!
Laying face down on my bed, my body lays motionless as I snooze the phone alarm with my left hand. It’s 6:07am. Snoozing my phone gives me an extra 8 minutes. I close my eyes again.
RING RING!! RING RING!!
This time I get myself up, grab the phone and shut off the alarm for good. One of the cats is at the foot of the bed sitting up, staring at me. I pet him on his furry blackish brown head; he happily lets out his patented purring. I stand up and head to the bathroom to wash up.
I walk back to the bedroom, get dressed and go to the kitchen as I make my way past the other cat resting on the three-story cat tree. As the coffee is brewing, I set myself up on the yoga mat to perform my daily stretching routine. It consists of several stretches, focusing on each part of my body one at a time. It takes about as long as for the coffee to be finished.
Following my recent breakup, my ex has just recently moved out of the apartment. Along with herself, she has taken all of her belongings. Much of the apartment is still intact, however most of the bedroom décor belonged to her—leaving only a bed, a nightstand, and a cat tree.
With all this newly available space, there is a corner of the bedroom that I have decided to dedicate to meditation. Now I am searching for ideas, inspiration, and suggestions on how to personalize this small area into a meditation space.
There’s a reason why I haven’t updated this blog in over a month.
If you’ve read the About Meditating Millennial section of this website, you would know that I am engaged to be married. After being together for almost five years, that is no longer the case. My ex-fiancée and I are no longer engaged to be married, and we are no longer together.
Sorry for the lack of posts recently! There will be a major update coming soon. It is in the works. Thanks to those of you who are still following this blog!
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Part 3 of the Why Do I Meditate Series.
I’ve talked in the past about why I started meditating. Here is Part 1 and Part 2 of the Why Do I Meditate Series. There is another reason why I started meditating, and after all this time, I had actually forgotten about this particular reason. It wasn’t until I read This wanderer’s comment that I remembered.
“If you are thinking too much about the past, and you are worrying too much about the future, then you are not living in the present. And in the present, that is all there is.”
A quote I read recently went something like that. I don’t know the exact wording, but the whole idea behind that statement has stuck with me. Ever since I’ve been meditating, I have had this new positive outlook on life. I do my best to stay in the moment; I do not worry about the past, and I do not worry about the future.